Tuesday, November 8, 2011

I don't know how to title this one but

they'll be no cute pictures with this post and I know I have posted once today but I have just had a revelation of sorts and I wanted to document it for no other reason than one day I can look back and say " OH yes I remember..."   
 About three years ago I was lead to read the book Ninty Minutes in Heaven .  I thought it was a rather strange book about a man who was in a car wreck and dies.  He goes directly to heaven where all of his friends and family who had died before him greeted him.  He goes on to tell how he never got to see Jesus but instead was wisked back to Earth to suffer the agony and pain of recovering from the car wreck.   A couple months afrer reading the book my husband was rushed to the ER where he died.  Standing over his body I pleaded to the Father "You did it once, you can do it again" for an hour I begged for Him to do a miracle and bring my love and life back but it was not to be.. For months I couldn't understand(as I suppose no person can) why.  I still really don't understand why...Yes I have remarried and I love Rick immensely.Maybe because I have lost two loves to death, I know to cherish love while you have love.  But back to the reason of this post..  I found out today that a dear lady has that wicked disease cancer and has only a few months to live. Instead of lamenting of how terrible it was for her( I know it will be hell for her family) I thought how wonderful it will be when she gets to see her three Js  Jesus, Johnnie and her son Jr.   They will be waiting for her with joy on their faces and open arms.  What a Homecoming she will have. I await my homegoing too.  I'll see you guys soon. Still love you both.

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